Last Minutes of Sunday II

I find myself writing in the last minutes of another Sunday.
I think it's the wrapping up of the previous week and the enormous potential for the upcoming week that inspires me to click my way to this page.

But perspective.
I want to say something about that because recently I have lacked perspective. I have looked down at my life and come away unsatisfied.
I see the numerous posts and pictures of friends at other colleges. I see posts of adventures friends here at my school that failed to invite me.
I compare my life to others and become ungrateful. Depressed. Unsatisfied.
I don't realize what I have.
My life is incredible.

I have a few close friends. Sometimes I feel the need to reach out for more.
That's all I need, though.
Then I start thinking that years from now, who cares about the others? The few are the ones that matter.
Why should I try to reach out and establish new relationships, give my time to others.
And that is because joy must be spread, be experienced, and multiplied.
Love must vibrate through the air.
Laughter must soak into our skin.

Life needs to be enjoyed. In the present. In the now.

Not later. Not in the future when I am older. I need to find the joys in everyday.

That being said, I need to see where I lack joy in my life. I should not do because I think I should.
I should do because I WANT, CRAVE, YEARN to do.
Can I break those bridges though?
Am I strong enough and wise enough to see the rusting bridges?