Precious

What's precious to me?
Of course, the first thing that pops into my head if this wonderful face.

However, when I look at my life, I realize that in the day-to-day humdrum, I can loose sight of what is truly precious. Talking with your friends for almost an hour in your car as you drop her off brings everything back into the light.
My life is so blessed. My friends and family mean the WORLD to me. Do I truly appreciate them? Let them know that everything day? Do I set down the homework, close my computer, look up from my busyness and give them my time? To give me a chunk of me in return for their love?

I should. Nights like tonight nudge me back on track with the correct perspective of the world as good, good with friends and family surrounding me.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Decided

I think I felt your nudge.

Since high school, I have tried to seek out my passion and my college major. Some days I tremble with fear of failure and tears well up as I blink them away.

What makes this worse is Indecision, a huge player in my life that loves to jumble my thoughts.

However, I've been trying to block Indecision out and instead ask Him to take my hand and yank me towards where he wants me.
Not sure if I got this correctly, Lord. Let me know if I'm going astray like I usually do.

Biology major with Mathematics minor.
It sounds right, feels right. The nudge I felt was my internship professor telling me I need to find the general formula for a pattern that I talked about at a conference this past weekend. As much as I stare at it and scribble letters down, nothing happens. No light bulb or spark just my pattern with a lacking formula.
I hate it. I don't like being presented with a problem like this where I have no experience or previous example to help.

So, praying and thought in You has nudged me to where I am now. I'm not going to give up on the general formula, can't do that. However, I can listen to You and follow your voice.

Thanks.

Checked off the List: Atlanta

This past Friday, I arrived at the BWI Airport to go through security alone for the first time to start off my adventure to Atlanta, Georgia. Atlanta!! Another state checked off the list.

I was there for a Math Conference, where I was surrounded by absolutely brilliant people with delightful accents sprinkled here and there. However, I'm not sure how I feel coming out of the conference.

Surrounded by mathematicians oozing passion and curiosity for mathematics, you would think some of the sparkle would fall on me. Alas, I felt "eh" coming out of conference. When asked how Atlanta was by friends and family I said, "fine." It was an AWESOME experience flying alone to an unfamiliar state giving my first talk at a conference. My interest wasn't quite piqued though.

Maybe math isn't for me.

This is the struggle I've been wrestling with for the past couple months. However, I'm done with struggling with it on my own. I've offered it up to God to sort it out and asked for his hand to lead me to where I should go. Now all I need to do is wait for his tug.